When I write these posts I often picture you, the readers. Some of you I know well and some I have never met. I can't see who you are, but through the magic (?) of technology, I can see where you are, what part of the U.S. or world you are located in! And, since I have a fairly stable number of readers each day, for which I am very grateful, I feel a real connection to you.
So today I'll reveal a little more about myself that you may or may not know.
My voice shows the ravages of life and time more than my body! I used to sing in small groups and in church choirs. No, I was never a soloist nor did I have a great voice, but I could sing harmony and really enjoyed it. About 20 some years ago I suffered a major depression accompanied by big hits of anxiety. I was treated with a lot of mind numbing drugs and gained my first big chunk of weight. Along with the depression and anxiety, my voice quality was lost. It became quite hoarse and it still has a croaky sound to it most of the time. I also lost my ability to feel/express a lot of emotion. I've been off all these drugs for about 10 years, but the voice and authentic emotion have never returned.
So, now I am going to try to change that. Tomorrow I am having my first session with a specialist in voice work, and I'm quite excited about it. And, I have good reason to believe that by doing it, I may be able to get some emotion flowing within me. We'll see!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
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The noodles are shipping as we speak.
Let you know.
The voice thing is interesting, and because I am undergoing a new journey with mine (for a month I've croaked) and have had two laryngeal exams which show little. Think Michael Douglas and Chris Hitches. I worry about this. Recheck tomorrow.
Anyway it was meant to be about the noodles.
Great that you shared this! Let me know how tomorrow goes...
I'm late commenting - I've run behind. But I needed to say a few things. First, I lost my voice for a year after I had my last child, and it made me incredibly depressed. But it came back, and now I'm choiring. Second, like many muscles, you need to practice and use them in the right way. It could be you have a physical reason for rasping, like nodes or scaring. But you also might just need to re-learn how to get a clear tone out. Hope everything went well, in any case.
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