One of the things I have become so aware of during this weight loss extravaganza (how's that for positive thinking? :) ) is that now I can't use food and wine to tamper down the feelings of stress, and sadness.
Lately I've had this feeling in my throat that is reminiscent of how I used to feel after a big cry. My throat feels bruised and tight. Since I had to see my PCP doctor today about a simple matter of a RX refill I brought it up to him. After going through some basics of my health history and looking in my throat, he agreed with Jennifer, that I'm blocking the flow of emotion and need to continue to work on letting go! I grew up in a family that believed only in physical aspects of health so I probably would have been more comfortable with him saying there was a physical cause. He didn't, and he encouraged me to continue working on allowing emotion to flow. He went on to say that so many of us use addictive behaviors - running/exercise, gambling, drugs, sex, porn, to name a few in addition to food and wine - to help cope with all that we face everyday. I'm wondering if people who are heavy have more issues or just find that the obvious emotional pain killers of food and wine are their addictions of choice.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
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it's hard to let yourself feel out of control enough and vulnerable to cry sometimes, even when you grow up in a family where it's ok to cry:) sometimes i find myself crying about little things (a commercial, a movie, etc) and then use that as a gateway to let some bigger tears through. Let them out momma!
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