169.4 Before and After

We are off to Tucson for several days where I hope to sell some of my jewelry.

I'll be back posting on this blog within a few days. I am thinking about transitioning this blog into a new one since I am as addicted to blogging as I am to raw carrots and sugar snap peas :).

Happy fall weekend!

179.4 Slip Slidin' Away?

Priscilla

I just got off the phone after talking to my sister Priscilla. She's been a great supporter of this weight loss adventure and I've really appreciated her comments and interest in this blog. I was complaining to her that these last ten pounds are turning out to be a huge challenge, when the lyrics to the Paul Simon song popped into my head.

Slip slidin' away
Slip slidin' away
You know the nearer your destination
The more you're slip slidin' away!

Reaching my goal doesn't just mean I will weigh 170 pounds. It also means that I won't be writing daily posts for this blog any longer, and perhaps this blog won't exist. It also means that my relationship with Jennifer Scott will shift and, even though I know that we will forge a better, more equal bond where I will not be the needy one, it has unsettled me.

This is hard to write but I know it's true. I can't keep moving off topic with crazy photos and anecdotes about my eye surgery, etc. I can't continue to write rather vague :) content based on the song Carefree Highway. Yeah, I knew it was, I think I'll stick with the word, vague.

So that's what is really going on. It's the pulling back to stay with what I know while at the same time, experiencing a strong desire to push forward. My inner voice, my inner spirit tells me that my life is going to be one of focusing on others rather than being as self-centered as it has been over the past several years, and that I'll have the opportunity to help others who want to deal with issues of losing weight, and of facing growing older. What's not to like about that?

This moment in my life reminds me a bit of going off to college. I'm at the stage where the car is packed and it's time to hit the road, not knowing exactly what the experience will entail, but having the assurance that I'll be changed for the better once I arrive, unpack the car, move in and get on with it.

183.2 On a Lighter Note...

A comment in yesterday's blog brought up the question about whether quitting smoking or losing weight and keeping it off is more difficult. Both are very difficult, but I think it's easier to quit smoking because, although you may think you need to smoke to live, you don't. However, you do need to eat to live and that means you are constantly faced with making decisions about food.

And now on a lighter note...I just bought a pair of size 12 jeans! Considering I was wearing a size 22 when I started on this weight loss process, I am thrilled. We are getting ready to spend a couple of weeks in the Northeast with family and these new jeans will keep me honest and help me continue to work toward reaching my goal (instead of reaching for a second helping)!