171.5 Looking Fat

I think this is what is called adaptation. As I was in the process of losing all of this weight, my brain had to adapt as the pounds went off. I was getting smaller, thinner (but never thin!) and I could see that over time once I bought my full length mirror. And as I was reaching my goal of losing 80 pounds, I could definitely see that I had lost weight, obviously, and that I looked quite slender.

Well, now I look in the mirror I'm no longer surprising slender. I've gotten used to how I look and now I see a fatter person. I see fat thighs when I used to see thinner thighs. I see a fat torso where I used to see a thinner torso. No, my bosom doesn't look fatter, but that's a whole other topic :).

So maybe it's time to think about losing a little more weight. I never thought I'd want to do that, but now I'm wondering about it. Several people have advised me (unsolicited advice, by the way) to not lose any more weight. And until recently, I totally agreed. But now I'm wondering if I quit too soon. According to all of the weight/height/age tables I should weigh about 20 pounds less than I do, so it's not as if my expectations are off the wall. But I'm really healthy now, my back is happier, and so the question is do I need to reach some weight because a chart suggests it? And, when I look in the mirror I see areas for improvement :)? I'm thinking about it.

183.8 A WOW Moment!

Later today I'll be going to pick up my newly re-sized engagement and wedding rings. For about three hours on Thursday, I was in an absolute frenzy trying to find the wedding band. These rings are very special because Jeff and I had them designed around some diamonds that Jeff had given me over the years. I was so distraught and looked everywhere I had been that day. Finally, I realized that I had not asked my Guides (that Inner Power), or my subconscious mind for help. So I said a prayer asking for help and all of a sudden the thought of our dog Charlee came to mind and I remembered I had turned over her little crate mattress pad as I was straightening our bedroom in the morning. And there my ring was, as if it had been placed perfectly in the center of the pad! I was overwhelmed with gratitude!

I was so happy to find it, but I also was upset with myself because I knew my rings were too large as a result of the weight loss, and I had knew I needed to have them made smaller because they had slipped off occasionally during the night. When I took them in yesterday I learned that they were size 8.25, and that I now wore a size 7 ring! So obviously, it hasn't all been belly fat that I've been losing!

Jeff and I are going to spend some time with our son and his family so I probably won't be posting anything for several days. I'll be writing again starting on Thursday, but as usual, you never know with me so check back whenever. And keep me in your thoughts as I navigate my way through the food choices at Six Flags in St. Louis! Now talk about challenging...!