189 Oh, My!

I haven't written in a while because I keep hoping I'll have a 5 pound weight loss to report or some bit of inspiration that has helped me and that I would want to pass along. I've been doing Weight Watchers and I like the record keeping part of it. But I think that my metabolism is so screwed up from the weight loss of 80 pounds that even though I am on Weight Watchers' minimum point allowance each week, it is just too high. Having been in "starvation mode" for so long means that my body doesn't know what to do with food. But maybe these are just excuses. I don't have a clue at this point. So what's the big deal? Why do I care anymore as I approach 70? I'm not going to win any beauty contests~ I never did ~ and it just feels exhausting. No, I don't want to put more weight on, but I feel like I am on that bridge to nowhere and it is unending. But maybe that's what weight watching is all about. Any thoughts?

187.4 There Is No Finish Line

Or, I could have entitled this post "An Amazing Weight Loss Journey Without End." When I started on this weight loss journey almost three years ago now, I definitely thought there would be an end point, that I'd reach my goal and somehow live happily ever after. As you know, I've been struggling for most of this past year with my weight, as much as I was when I was trying to lose those 80 pounds. This time I was struggling to maintain my goal weight and not regain weight, and I've been losing the struggle. Well, I'm still on the journey which has taken a surprising turn. Yesterday, after much thought, I joined Weight Watchers. I went to my first meeting and really liked it. I felt validated when the leader brought up the point that maintaining weight loss is actually more difficult than losing weight, and I do agree with her. She mentioned that most of the contestants on The Big Loser have gained back most if not all the weight they lost while competing on the show. So, I'm not alone in this. Why did I join Weight Watchers? So that I'd be accountable to someone else. When I was losing I had Jennifer to care and to coach and encourage. Now I have WW to fill that need that I have. Some folks can do it all on their own. I need a cheering section!

My cousin was here a couple of weeks ago and told me about a friend who wears a workout shirt that says on the back, "There Is No Finish Line". I can relate to that! There are so many aspects to weight issues and for most of us, it is/will be a continual battle, but life will always get in the way, and I have to remember that that's the good news. Life is good!