183.4 Starting Again!

Sometimes I feel as if I am wandering in a maze and can't find the right direction to head in. I keep bumping into walls, or I go forever and then realize I'm totally lost and getting nowhere. So this morning I've started writing down everything I eat and I've got a new sign in my pantry reminding me that I do not want to undo all the work I did. Now I am great at putting things in place to help me, and then I turn a blind eye/mind to all of my efforts. But I woke up in the middle of the night and berated myself for my sloppy attitude and resultant weight gain. Then I remembered to love myself and my body for starters and I'm on a much better footing this morning. I'm going to find my way out of the maze.

181.4 Does It Matter?

My sister asked that question in response to the question I asked yesterday about why working out on the elliptical versus walking briskly seems to help me sleep better. And her response of "does it matter" also goes for lots of things I write about. But some things do matter to me because I'm always trying to figure out what is best, why I gain or lose at a specific time, etc. I don't know why my weight popped up this morning, but at least it's not horrific (does anyone say "oh horrors" anymore?) and there is probably not a lesson to be learned...everyday.

So I did the elliptical today for 30 minutes and I'm off to get a mani and a pedi!

I just like this picture. It symbolizes how much I hope to touch Zuzu's life, and how important her touch is to me.