174.4 Could It Be? The Peanut Butter Saga

So I am feeling like I am back in charge. I don't know who was in charge as my weight crept up, but I think that that's what unconscious eating is all about. This morning it dawned on me that yesterday was the first day in a long time that I managed to not eat any peanut butter. So you are thinking what was she doing eating peanut butter?! Well, I thought I could eat it on my Ezekiel bread toast for breakfast in the morning. And I could do that if that had been the only time during the day I ate peanut butter. But, I started spreading it a little thicker and a little thicker over time. And then it turned into a very delicious snack to eat in the late afternoon when I began to feel hungry, and/or just before bed, and since I wasn't eating it on anything, I could eat more of it. Well I can't!

So, now I am going to try to be more aware of other foods where the unconscious eating mode has taken over. This maintenance world is tricky, a lot trickier than the losing phase because options become greater in number and in amount. Maybe I should have joined the circus. Balancing on a tightrope seems easier than figuring all of this out.

179.2 YUM!

Yummy!

I just finished one of my favorite breakfasts. It consists of fresh berries on top of "Better Than Peanut Butter" (available at Trader Joe's), on top of an Oroweat Double Fiber English Muffin.

The berries are still plentiful and so delicious, and the peanut butter is defatted and has all the goodness of peanut butter, but half the fat and calories of regular peanut butter. Warning: in my opinion, humble as it may be, this does not taste a lot like peanut butter. In a taste test, I'm sure you would be able to detect the difference. However, the benefits are such that I have opted for it to replace my real peanut butter, and the taste is well, pretty good.

The white stuff? Well, the truth had to come out one way or another. Call it an addiction (no it is not cocaine), or a strong craving, but I use a lot of Splenda. When I put it on fruit the flavor seems to pop up several notches, and always use it in my coffee, or tea. And, I drink several gallons - well, it seems like that - of Crystal Light everyday.

Maybe I should blog about getting over my Splenda habit once I reach my weight goal? Nope, not a chance because I have no plans to banish this from my daily diet. Maybe Splenda is one of my new comfort foods!